I make it a point not to write too much about the comings and goings at NBC Bay Area because a) we need healthcare b) we get heavily discounted Comcast cable, Internet, and phone, and c) you don't get any of those if you get fired for writing about the comings and goings at NBC Bay Area.
But that sound you hear is my neck snapping back from the whiplash because when things change in this industry, they capital C to the hange. I have worked for 3 news directors in 4 years, which in TV years, is like 6 news directors in 2 years. With each new boss comes new ideas, new strategies, new hires, and an overall new feeling and attitude from the corner office. You know what that's like. Everyone's on a bit of an eggshell carpet, because change is not everyone's BFF. But the funny thing is, even when the changes are good, it still wrinkles people's suspenders. And what's more, it's not even the change that's the biggest deal. It's the ANTICIPATION of change. The IMPENDING change. The POSSIBILITY of change. That's when sphincters begin to tighten.
I have worked long enough in a deadline-centric breaking news-driven environment to deal with change a little more efficiently than the average widget making bear. No offense to widget making bears, but when you work in news, you learn that having your assignment change 4 times in one hour is par for the course and if you don't like it, they are hiring widget making bears all over the Silicon Valley and those bears are laughing at your pittance of a salary and lack of free massages and lunches.
So bears, I know you have a better gig. Especially with the onsite drycleaning and foosball tables and free candy and beanbag chairs. I'm just saying even for a person who lives and breathes change, CHANGE can get overwhelming at times. If I suffered from stress-related rashes, I would look like this right now.
Just when you think you know what's up, just when you start to get into a groove, BAM, CHANGE! New boss, new owner of your company, new health plan, new 401k offers, new desk, new person sitting in the desk next to yours, new person walking through your newsroom complimenting your blog. Last one is something I am NOT complaining about, veteran morning anchor saying he reads my posts and thinks I'm a "funny and engaging writer." In front of one of my bosses? Oh yes Mister, I will take that kind of CHANGE all day long thankyouverymuch.
New and beautiful and likable talent coming into the newsroom is a tougher pill to swallow. We all have our insecurities and competition in the newsroom ain't newz but when you're used to being among the few whippersnappers and suddenly other whippersnappers are whipping and snapping, you feel a little lot less special.
And you go home to your husband all annoyed like, "Can you belieze this shiz?" But after you walk it out and shadowbox in your living room to some Rihanna S & M, you calm down and listen to the advice your big brother/mentor at the station gives you: Worry about your pile. Don't worry about other people's piles.
That sounds gross but here's the jist of it: I am in one pile. Other people will come in and be placed in other piles. That doesn't guarantee their pile is better than my pile, just that it's different. And my pile is an excellent pile. It's not a throwaway pile. It's an important pile. I needn't concern myself too heavily with what's happening in other piles, because that's only going to be annoying and distracting. I need to make sure my pile is delivering the goods, and that my pile is vocal enough to express that it doesn't want to be my only pile and that I am good in other piles too. AHEM AHEM. But primarily, focus on your pile and don't get sidetracked by other piles.
And my other mentorlicious diva also had excellent advice for me: things sort themselves out and sometimes Time is the best remedy.
It's tough for me to grin and bear it but sometimes actions speak louder than words, and other times, words need to speak loudly too. I've got that second part down pretty pat I think.