Day One Continued

I have always thought full time mothering is harder work than full time jobbing. Maternity leave the second time around is proving that fact. Last time, i just had to worry about me and the impending human expulsion. This time around there's a second little being who needs to be entertained, fed, and mentally stimulated. And I'm not talking about The Good Doctor. 

But here are the reasons I think it's so much harder to enjoy full time momming vs. full time working outside the home.

1. You have so much more experience working. I got my first job at 14 at a kiosk in the mall. That means I've been working for 20 years. I've been momming for 2.75.

2. You are an independent being who now has a dependent being. Getting used to that takes time. A lot of time.

3. You talk to adults at work. Some may be childish but at least you don't have to wipe their butts. 

4. You have access to a computer at work. And no one trying to move your hands away so they can "make lots of letters." (Emmy code for: holding down various letter keys to make this bbbbbbbbbbbbb zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz iiiiiiiiiiiii. It's like crack to toddlers.)

5. You can be inappropriate. Today Emmy said, "It's cold as a mother!" Right after I said, "It's cold as a mother!" That was a close one.

6. Full time momming can cause serious yawning. So does work but you don't feel as guilty.

7. You take the time for granted when you spend 13 straight hours with your kid. I believe in quality over quantity. If I could master both, that would be ideal. But somehow it doesn't seem to work that way.

8. You don't have to get people in and out of car seats all day long. 

9. You don't feel the same pressure to perform. I work in a field that can be stressful at times, but I'm accustomed to deadlines and live shots and the expectations of reporting and anchoring. If I screw up, it's bad, but it's also TV. No one is going to fail their SAT's or not reach their full potential or not get into Stanford if I don't do things "right." And I'm someone who likes to do things right. 

10. You feel underqualified. Constantly.